If you didn't want me, why did you hug me harder, hug me longer? Why did you have that look on your face when I was going to say goodbye for the last time? Why did you make me so unwilling to leave, to go? Why did you make me unwilling to leave, why did you make me want to cry? Why did you break me down when I was strong enough to say goodbye to you? Why did you stop the fan at me when I was sleeping, and sweat at your computer?

Why did you make me feel you didn't want me to leave?

You jerk, jus tell make me hate you so I can forget you easier, can't you? The only reasonable excuse I'll accept is that you lost your feelings for me, jus tell me that, why did you tell me it's to make me happier? Why did you think I'll be happier without you? Why did you fucking make decisions for me, predict my future with you?

I need a reason enough to take my heart away and shatter my hope
I want you to tell me you've lost your feelings for me but I'm afraid it's the truth

You didn't want me enough.

I guess that's reason enough to stop waiting, but
It's not enough.

You won't read this anyway. Did you care enough to read my life?


I hate you for being able to make me so vulnerable, so weak
Able to tear away my layers of strength
Leave me a raw baby
Susceptible to any hurt any pain
I have nothing to protect me
Nothing to hide under you have taken away everything.
Selfish cad, you didn't leave me anything
To hide under to cover

I was strong.