I shall stop trying to find a reason to convince myself.

I think of him when I'm walking. I think of him when I'm running. I think of him when I'm on the second floor. I think of him when I see Mrs Cheng. I think of him when I'm in class. I think of him when I'm doing homework. I think of him when I'm taking the bus. I think of him when I'm listening to music. I think of him when I see couples. I think of him when I see people. Heck, I even think of him when I see the floor. So sue me it's not like I can control it.

Dont think I'm gna say anymore le, can't take it after telling bubble shop uncle.

Walking out with moon and donson was fun(:

Penq is giving me a water bottle she found during the sec two experimental camp : I don't dare to use it. Lol. Hongkong in a few hours time. Bye y'all!

P.S. I still feel like slapping suwen. What the fuck is wrong with her?
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I feel like there's two me. I can't feel the other me but I know it's there. I've done such a good job of hidding it I cant find it anymore. But it's still there and will always be if I don't face it. Am I hiding from it?
I'm sick of people saying "You look okay leh" to me. Like I'll show it out, like I'll walk around crying 24/7 huh. Doesn't mean I dont cry means I'm okay. To think of it, I havent gotten the strength to announce it much anyway. Haha, announce it. Funny. Not. I'm feeling warped now

I miss our playground behind the previous 3rp classroom )): Amanda and me sat on the parapet today and it was nice hugging the pillar like a koala bear (I need a sense of security now more than ever, rly) and looking at the pretty pretty view. Lake's super big and deep and you can see lots of things heh I've been wanting to sit on the parapet for years but no I'm not gna be like yanting haha I'm not that silly. I am kuku, is different.

I wld have sat there w/o thinking of hugging the pillar a while ago.

I'm not okay
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