They say we're too young to fall in love, but falling in love is the fastest way to grow up.

I miss the holidays. I can't believe school is slowly disinteresting me. I don't know why. But I know I'll continue studying not for myself. Why

Is getting good results that important? I hate this thought but I need school.

Oh fuck I'm jus messed up bad. Agree yeah? I've been trying to strike a balance, sort out, schoolwork, my interests(which is alot) & stuff. I dont know I dont know I dont know This sucks, looking fwd to school ending WHY? I never was like that in sec two. My brain just seems to be purposely rejecting schoolwork and I don't know why!

I feel there's jus so much to life besides studying you know. Because I'm not that interested in the subjects, although I like them I dont need them. And egeog is a sore eye.

If I had a choice I'd write, read(I haven't read for fucking long do you know), dance, listen to songs, model, learn other stuff and such. Oh man I know all of you out there are gna frown at this, but yes. And I'm imagining moon thinking, nobody can do what they want what..

And I feel so shitty guilty because I have this views, I feel I'm letting my friends and family down

I'm so itching to start on the story with philosopher mate but there's no time, I know I haven't started egeog and I'm supposed to be doing elit now.

I've so many things I'd resolved to do like reread elit plus the notes behind, catch up on subjects and such but..
& you know what? I miss the feeling of satisfaction of finishing hw. I know you'll think, then why don't you finish hw then? Yes I'm thinking that too you know

I miss the area behind 3RP where I cld zi bi there with my trusty lover music

I am messed up bad.