I smell like salted fish! For some reason, and only after eating at 85 lol, and only my shirt! Funny. And dummy will be appalled to know my confession: I haven't bathe yet! Bwahahaha okay.

Yes wj I'll keep you in mind to dedicate a book to if I ever do write one. As for whether I'd rly write, that'll be up to you to guess. Lala.

I am a sausage frank. Lol.

Okay. Shall list them here and try to organise my brain as I promised to sort things out by this week le.

Biggest potential cause of break down: Pressure/Stress

From sch: Everyone's working so hard, somemore in RP, and usually slack pple like etz has even called to ask whether I've started revision for olvls. Gawd. And moon is suddenly so hardworking. Lol. Not your fault or anything, but I'm stressed more than ever le. Also don't wna disappoint teachers like mr so. Wna get gd results for them. I'll get A1 for mr so! And I'm dreading lin lao shi giving me 'the look' when I flunk my chi. Er

And I'm struggling in amaths. Puke blood

From home: tadaaa-the biggest source! My dear, lovely parents. (I hope you can sense the sarcasm although it's thrue they're quite lovely sometimes) EVERYTIME I land my butt to relax awhile after like, hours of binomial theorem and such, they start nagging about: This year cannot afford to slack, use your time to study, you're getting slacker and slacker! Ramble And Nag. It's so irritating and unbearable I stopped watching tv and walked out of the room. Ah, peace. I know you want me to go jc. Then uni. For what? For pride so you can show off to your business associates. And because bro and sis don't have that good results and you're piling ALL your bloody damn expectations and hopes on me, the only child left that can go jc. So you've alrdy laid out the path I'm going to walk. Preferbably the best jc possible, and the best uni possible. Then you land all this unnecessary pressure on me. I can't even relax at home. When I'm doing my hw, you don't seem to notice. When I take a little time off to use the com or watch tv, the nagging starts. I'm only expected to have this life: Wake up, eat, go sch study, go home, eat, study, sleep. How exciting! I'm totally looking fwd to it. I suppose you don't realise how much pressure you're giving me which is like twice or thrice the pressure I face at sch, which is okay rly until you both started. Thanks for grounding me for six months, anyway. I know I'll still go out. Hello? I have a life. You can't keep me down.

Yeah, maybe at least they care. But I thought I've read in newspapers, magazines, everywhere to you know, advise parents not to stress students. Yeah, I suppose they forgot, or they jus don't care. Maybe their eyes jus can't read those words, you know. Or process that sentence. Compromise? Ha.

So now what I'm gonna do is to finish up all my late hw this week and start anew next week.

Wish me luck. Hugs to everyone.

Oh did I mention? I felt like shunning all new year cookies this year except for the bunnies my mum's friend makes, but I forgot my aunt's cookies. I'm growing fat on them now :DDD