&~%$&^#%&%#*%!
And I resort to unspoken language
Because I'm supposed to be strong
This is grossly unfair
It breaks me that all you know
Is nothing is wrong
I'm going to drop it
Let you go
It seems it's always the only way you'll know
You've broken your promises
When I've told you not to make promises you cant keep,
It may not be as it is to you
But to me it is
And I'm supposed to be strong
So it's a vicious cycle, and
I've got to live it down.

I'm emptied and I can't feel anything anymore,
I'm numb, I
Look to songs to fill me with meaning.

My arm has a wound, it's bleeding,
I stand and look for a tissue but sit back down,
I'm enjoying the shot of pain in me
It's giving me shivers, and I'm enjoying it
It relieves the ball of pain in my chest

The song has done its job,
It's completely unrelated,
But it does its job,
And my eyes open and from there flows tears.

I'm cold, and I'm shivering
I turn up the fan
To make myself colder
Maybe it will match the cold within.

And I'm shivering violently
I wanna vomit, I feel like puking
Then you ask me
And I hate it,
I hate it because I know I'll soften and in the end
I'll act like nothing has happened
Because I love you too much
To hurt you.