uncle died on sun morng, 2+ am. he was 49.
although we werent close to him, i cant imagine what his family are going thrgh. makes me so scared one my parents wld, like him get a heart attack and leave us. sis said he had some pains in his heart a few days before but refused to see a doc. i'd never refuse to see a doc again. lol. wld his wife be in total anguish she didn't force her husband to go see the doc? how are the three children and her gna hope. god, deaths are so depressing and unexpected. he was frothing when he died, and when my mum and her family told him they wld take care of his three children, he teared. after he had died. what is death, anyway. supernaturality.
my mummy is like a fragile person made of china now. im so afraid to agitate her. dont dare to ask her if i can go out. somehow, when she walks, there's a depressing air. seeing her makes me think of death. not her, choy, but yes, it's her brother! can i do anything to make her feel better? she's going on with her normal life, she talks normally, yah.
immensely saddening ):