death sucks like hell.
yes, i know, how can it possibly rock. for those left living, anyway.
although he wasn't close to me, my heart tears for his family. god, how are them gna cope? one mum and three big and still growing guys. their lives before wasn't exactly rich and good before, now it's gna get worse.
funerals, and cremation today. why the hell does the mandai crematorium look so bloody nice?! and it has all these state of art machinery and all sorts too. and how many bodies have been reduced into ashes inside.
makes me cant stop thinking about death lah. im so, so scared my parents'll suddenly go too. and then, what ifs a bomb comes down? what if i get knocked dead by a car tmr, being such a potential accident victim? i shall force yc not to think about bad stuffs cos there're too many what ifs. how lucky i am to be born to naturally think on the brightest side.
this year ends on a sad note.
and the new year is going to start on a sad note too.
LONELY LIKE SHIT
what a bloody damn vicious cycle.
okay, in order not to sound too sure and stuff, assuming me and yc are gna last thrgh this cycle, so there goes:
next year, olvls. the next, alvls. then alvls for me and army for him. then maybe i go uni. wait for him for another year. according to him it's four years to get thrgh. im not one to plan so far ahead, he's the planner haha so i jus type what he said.
WELL i can jus cope with being alone next year in chung cheng. so ironic rly, been in the same pri sch and sec sch and got to enjoy the benefits for like, half a year. hardly. haha! well anyway. totally not looking fwd to an every day lonely trip home, him being from the opp direction. blah blah blah im too used to going home with him practically every day lah. haha. sometime to get used to. some change.
what jc will i go into?
on the other hand,

i am a caged bird.