well. dont know what to say much about wj's case. but i hope for the best! and i swear i'd dislike mr lo ALWAYS. ):

hmmmm. what i was blogging in my head yesterday! haha. it came from this sentence moon said:
"eh you like spoilt kid like that ah, always mus parents fetch!"

ahh, i suppose that has its own truth. being a SUPERLY mollycoddled child,

-to be continued since my piano teacher jus changed the time to 1-4.
3 hrs of piano, wish me luck [:

okay i'll skip that. blogging in my head that time. i forgot alot of stuff.
Now what's affecting me alot is moon and sal.. ant.
what ant said in her blog rly rly hit me. though it's the truth lah. and it's a private entry anyway.

Quote: "but truthfully, today. when i saw jia yuan kept looking for sal. i jsut wondered if u were right about wad u said. maybe she's happier like that too. happier wid sal in a sense. "
it jus sliced thrgh that thin string i had, the hope that i was wrong, that i was thinking too much and that moon and i was still. besties.

now all is gone..

i'll shoo off. she's happier with sal. although i rly dont wna miss her. i dont. but. i guess it'll be better off with me, ant, iv. i dont rly blame ant, i guess. although i DO wish it was like before, sal and ant, moon and me.. she doesnt want it that way too.

oh god, im crying o_O

i dont wna continue searching for a gd jc with them anymore. i'll feel like im this bloody extra ass who's hanging on to them. so extra. 3 is never, never a gd no. till now. it's always created problems.

i'd prob go into vjc then. if ant and iv goes in.. yeah.

i'll miss moon's laughter so much. her jokes. her silliness. her ability to make me laugh. she being the one who can make me laugh when i cry. somehow i see her face i'll jus laugh. lol. yc's the other one who can cheer me up. though i cheer up because he'll become depressed too, and i dont want that.

and the absolute telepathy we have. we hate, like, have the same EXACT thoughts about the same people and we always think alike. do same things. at the same time. it's rly magical.

anyway..

it's over. aint it?

i'd never be as close as her anymore.

we werent even close in the first place.

it was such a bloody, fucked up. LIE.

oh FUCK ALL THIS, I WANT OUT.

i only wanted to blog about the barrier i thought betwn me and moon. whatever. this SHIT. i'm rly tired. since before exam. i rly wanted to help ant. i stayed by her when i cld. i tried my best to be there for her.
but im rly, rly, tired.

does anyone know how hard it is to be caught between ant and the rest? not wanting to let down anyone esp myself? the feeling jus so sucks, you know.

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

the barrier was that.
maybe i cared about moon too much. i cared abt how she thought of me. so whatever i said, whatever i did, i was scared she wld disapprove. that's not a gd thing. that's not friends. like being with ant. iv. i do whatever i want. im not afraid what they'll think of me. cos i know they'll accept. sthng like that. i have a bit of the barrier with sal too. but there's a diff one. more complicated i guess.

WHATEVER FUCK WE WERENT MEANT TO BE IN THE FIRST PLACE
why.. why mus it end up like this.

i dont want it to be like this.