i want to believe you.. but i find it so, so hard to do so. i cant.

i wanted to stay in bed under the blanket in this nice weather the whole day. the sky comforts me with rain [:
I love rain. (not the actor, stupid)
hibernated all day. used com awhile, watched 3/4 of harry potter, packed room 1/5, played pool and here i am.
you're probably having fun.
give me a chance to learn not to need you.
but i do admit it, it's hard. my mind constantly, i mean constantly, has you.
WhatFuckLah
im sick and tired
blah blah blahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Can i pon choir tmr? i dont like teddy bear's picnic, i dont wna break the promise i gave to ant, but there's a higher chance i can go sal's party if i do.
little white lies
why isit like that. i must keep to the break. i initiated it. and maybe it's better this way cos i have only myself to blame. i cant blame you. makes it easier to jus blame myself for everything.

daddy, pls buy my punching bag soon, i wna punch everything out, there's nothing for me to punch.
I miss your smiley eyes.

owj: THIS IS NOT A LOVESICK ENTRYYY
but i miss him.

SHOW ME YOU ASS, DONT USE WORDS, IT'S USELESS, DO WHAT YOU NORMALLY WONT DO, SURPRISE ME, TOUCH ME, SHOW ME.

owj: im faxie-ing pls change your layout, i dont like it much, doesn't fit you lah. ha ha. if you can find that layout again, and can find the pic again, i can host it for you if you want and you can have the old layout back. haha. haha. hhaha.

staying at home twiddles my mind. im mad.

im sry, i rly am. i dont wna be a mafan girl.
(change of thoughts)
but if you dont like it, tell me and leave
(change again)
but i hope you know im sry

WAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH